Thursday, August 23, 2007

♥ LoOkInG uP ♥

Things are looking up for me & the family. Monday we found out Tony's job was safe! Thank God! I have been really stressing out about this for months now. My brother-in-law has a friend who works for MTSU & could possibly have a job for Tony. I am not holding my breath on this, but I am saying a prayer that he has a chance.

There is also a relief at work & I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. We have a huge deadline to meet and I believe I, along with the 6th grade will meet the deadline. Pumping is getting better & I am not as stressed.
Saturday we meet with Angela to see all of Owen's pictures and purchase some. It's going to be hard to decide what ones to get & not get. If I were rich, we would purchase them all. However, we are going to have to *pick* out the best ones & I know they are all great. Angela's work is FAB & I am so glad she found me. Below are four of the pictures she took:

Well, I am going to wake Owen so he can eat before he heads to daycare. Until next time...


Sunday, August 19, 2007


For the past two weeks I have had a lot on my, home, Owen, Tony, pumping, teaching, deadlines, & the list goes on. It seems just when things are going good...crap hits the fan. It's been a while since I have posted anything & I don't really know where to begin, but I need to start somewhere.

I will start with the positive:

We had Owens picture made last weekend with Angela Crutcher and what I have seen of the pics, they are FAB! Owen was wonderful for the two hours she was here. I just can't wait to see the others. Well, that's about all for the positives...

Negatives: Owen started daycare two weeks ago and I have really been depressed ever since. I HATE it someone else gets to take care of him, he smells like daycare & not me, he has to take 3 bottles rather than nursing, they don't love him like I do, are they holding him? NO, and I am sure there are a ton more things. He seems to be adjusting to the new place, but I am NOT. I really like it there & they are all so nice...however, I would rather be home!!!

Work...I love teaching, but this year is hard! There are so many new requirments and we only have about three weeks to complete them all. My principal wants us to turn in lesson plans for 9 weeks, go through about 30 kids cume folders, and write an IEP (inndivual education plan) for EVERY student we teach (I have about 150 students), & I am sure there is something I am missing.

Want to talk about stress, PUMPING while at work has become another JOKE! This would not even be possible if it wasn't for a few male teachers who have stepped up to the plate. I just really wished I would have taken off a full year to be home with Owen. Speaking of Owen...he is sick! Yep, thanks daycare! Last night I didn't get but maybe 3 hours worth of sleep b/c Owen was up all night. Today was the same and he has finally fallen asleep. I have said a prayer that he will sleep throught the night. I can't take much more. Tony is going to get up with him tonight if he is fussy & stay home tomorrow with Owen. We called the doctor and we bought a humidifier, nose drops, & Vick's baby rub in hopes something will help.

Tony should know something this week about where he stands with his job at SunTrust. This is the main thing that's stressing me out. The thought of Tony not having a job is really taking it's toll on me. I will let you all know something as soon as I do.

Well, I am off to try to get some much needed sleep & pray that my angel sleeps tonight.


Sunday, August 5, 2007

♥ The time has finally come ♥

Well, it's time home is UP! Tomorrow is Owen's first day at daycare and I am so SAD. I am NOT looking forward to it & honestly, I have done a lot of crying. I know I have no choice, but it is killing me.

I don't have to be back to work till Wednesday but I thought I would go ahead back to get my room ready & to get Owen use to his teacher. He will only be there for a few hours tomorrow and Tuesday, but full days the rest of the week.

A part of me is really ready to return to work and the other half just wants to be a Mommy at home with Owen. I try to look at all the positives with my work: no long hours, little time at daycare, a few days off a month, a week off in November, two weeks in December, one in January, & one in March. Not that shabby.

Owen is really laughing a lot these days and the sound just melts my heart. He is getting so big & I am not really liking it. I loved the small 8 pound baby & he is much bigger now. Matter of fact, we are going to the doctor tomorrow & I am interested to see how much he weighs.

Well, I am off to get all the things together for tomorrow. I will post tomorrow about his & mine first day apart.

Sad Stephanie

Wednesday, August 1, 2007


It has been brought to my attention numerious times that I am Owen's *pacifier*. Yes, that's right, the boy LOVES to nurse! He has to nurse before he goes to sleep, no matter what. I have always said I will NEVER give my child a pacifier until Monday. I went to Target and bought Owen a Nuk & he hated it! It was so funny...I put it in his mouth and he spits it right out. I tried...

I was afraid when he is at daycare & I am not there to nurse he will have a hard time. It is going to be such an adjustment but he will figure it out. I wished I could stay home with him for the first year but that's out of the question. I wished we were rich and didn't have to worry about a single thing...however, that's not the case.

Owen is sleeping really well during the night. Last night he was put in his bed at 8:45 and didn't wake up till 4:45...not that shabby! He is so darn sweet! He could wake up every hour and I wouldn't be mad, how can I?

Other than that, I am dreading heading back to work on Monday. I will only be there about a half day, then to a meet at Vandy, & then to pick up my man from daycare. Tuesday I have to be there at 8 to meet the new 6th graders and then from 8-3 on Wednesday-Friday. I know I am going to ball like a baby when I have to leave him at daycare.

Oh well, I am going to fold clothes...Yippee!