there is a god...

today was a total melt down. i got to owen's daycare about 730 & he would not let me go..."hold you mama, hold you, no mama" i literally had to walk into another room so no one could see the large crocodile tears in my eyes. my heart had just broken into a million little pieces. on a typical day i stay with owen a minimum of 15 minutes and today was no different. his teacher had to peel him off of me, i walked in the hall, signed him in, and told elise if he doesn't stop i am taking him with me. well, he stopped and i went on to work.

once at work he crosses my mind a million times. i arrived at work and i talked with josh, a father of three, and a once stay-at-home dad. he reassured me once i get owen moved and felt better about the care things would get better. throughout the day it didn't and i continued to think about him.

i didn't eat lunch with the normal crowd and when i met with my team all i could do was complain about " i want to be at home, i hate owens daycare, i need to not work, i want to raise my child, and the normal complaining i do". i went back to my class and emailed another parent at owen's daycare who is also on the waiting list for tgs, i wanted to touch base with her and see if they were planning on moving there over the summer. we i put owen on the waiting list they told me it would be more than likely the late summer or august. so, i wasn't worried about it.

right before 6th period i checked my phone and there was a call from melanie, blake's mommy, letting me know tgs had called he about a spot open. i called them to check about ours seeing we were ahead of them and he has a spot.

i know this is the best place for him and he will learn so much, but there is a lot of reservations. i currently pay 160 a week for care and it will go up to 217 a week. it will go down to 197 in may when he turns two. there is so much about this preschool i love. they have a wonderful curriculum, structure, and have educated teachers. i just pray this is the right move. god has ways of answering prayers. owen will start the week i am on spring break. i will ease him into the new environment. i will take him on monday and stay with him an hour or so and work up to the full day.

i pray god will watch over owen and me through this transition. not to mention the money difference. i noticed i will not pass a starbucks on my way in to work. that will save money. :) i am sure the tears are not over, but i hope i will feel like owen is safe at the new PRESCHOOL!!!

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